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On fast-cooking

26.9.06


Fast-Cooking...hehe...bukan berati memasak cepat...tapi..memasak sambil puasa. hehe...Ah. aku akhirnya merasakan malesnya masak sambil puasa...untuk berbuka apalagi!. Well, hehe, at least buat gw yang mesih rookie dalam hal masak-memasak.

Klo masak sehari2 kan enak, mo trial n error brapa kali juga, bisa dicoba cicip coba cicip n panggil yang laen klo dah kelar n siap saji. Tapi klo puasa? Beuh. mo ngicip gak bisa. bahkan tadi mo ngecek nasi dah mateng apa blon, tak sengaja kutelan 2 butir nasi..uheue...baru setelahnya inget klo puasa. jadi alhamdulillah rejeki...wakaka...N, yang tersulit, untuk ngepasin selesenya hidangan plus tajil segala macem PAS bedug! wuadoh.

Hebring oge ibu2 itu teh ya..edan.

*oh, setengah 6. allez cuisine!

posted by scttrBrain
5:19 PM

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17.9.06


Here's another quote I deliberately took from a long stalk on Risk Management Study tonite...ihihi...

Life is either a daring adventure or nothing. Security does not exist in nature, nor do the children of men as a whole experience it. Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than exposure.(Helen Keller)

Wow. I'd say It's another perspective on seeing risk. No no, I'm not going to ramble bout risk in finance, I'm talking bout taking risk in general, in LIFE. I'd always thought Risk Management is an attempt to mitigate risk itself. But here, it stated that one should be exposed to risk, in order to survive in life. What an intriguing insight.

Have you ever seen "Along Came Polly"? where Ben Stiller's playing a Risk Manager, a person that's always wanted to be in 'safe-mode' : no exposure to whatever risk life may bring, He's taken 'risk-mitigating' in its MOST extreme state, in every tiny facets of his life. How life's dull being Ben. Oh, I wouldn't spoil the plot for you who hasn't watched it. It was just an example opposing Helen Keller's quote above. On how life would be dull avoiding danger or risk.

But the idea of mitigating risk is always there. Decision-making is essential in each tiny step of our life, isn't it? I am-I think-one who tends to take risk. I'm very timid as a person, but I believe taking risk is worth the return value--You know, return is usually linearly correlated to risk. For instance,

I can't deny I always get stomach-ache EVERYtime I'm goin mountaineering, or rafting, or climbing. I know the risk, it could be death in its worst case scenario. At some time, my mom would suggest me not to go, she'd say she had bad feeling. Once, I replied,"I could die anytime,anytime Allah wants it to be.Whether I'm going or not, the time has set. Nothing's gonna change it.". I knew, my alter ego--wanting just to go--dominates. I wasn NOT thinking. But then, she said,"But you don't know Allah's plan". "Going, means gaining exposure to risk. And what we can do is to reduce the probability of the exposure, for instance, by not going towards it.". ....oh. I realize she's rite. But still, my alter ego wouldn't let me give in. It simply want some experience, something that has to be taken, or else I'd regret for not taking it, for the rest of my life. And I always follow it. My ego, maybe stupid one. Aww...sorry mum for making you so worried over the years...I haven't been a good daughter...=(.


Or, other ailment of mine.

I've never been satisfied. I know my strengths and weaknesses, people say,"live with your strenghts, not weaknesses". Definitely!, But instead of avoiding my weaknesses, I always tend to stray away from my strenghts, and trying to mend my weaknesses. I always depict the sentence with, "Change your weaknesses into strenghts, as you cannot live with one". As the result, my strenght is not fully developed, but I gained broader spectrum of skills, by developing my default weaknesses. I'm living only once, there's too much to see, to learn, but it's so brief, life.

It happens all the time. And until this moment, my ego usually rules. The other me-TheTimidMe, says it's stupid. It suggest that I should be living with whatever strenght I've already known, and not to wander searching for others, wasting my brief time in this tiny world. Tsk.

Weleh, curhat gini...wekekek...takapalah.

What do you say? I'm stupid or what.

posted by scttrBrain
8:57 PM

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16.9.06


I'm such a loser. I violate my own promise to get back on the saddle (thx for term, cum), and instead, doing this. Arghh..


I'm gonna continue telling you bout that stupid trip to Singapore. My first trip alone. I suggest you read the #1 part first : here

***

Hm..It was the second day. Pushing myself towards the crowds I immersed myself quite easily. I've got some business cards with me =D which was actually LFM business cards. It was stupid to trade such kinda cards w/ people. The next afternoon, in lunch break session, I moved out. The current hotel n the backpacker lodge I'm about to check in is actually 2 MRT stations apart, but I only took one--not realizing how the second is actually much nearer until the last day--and I had to walk 3 blocks away from the station. The venue itself is located just next to the station. I was excited bout checking in. It's not my first backpacker lodge, but it IS outside the country. ihihi...BUT! Instead of finding that Magelang-originated front officer, A singlish-speaking-chinesse-lady told me that the girls are extending their stays that NO girl-only-room is vacant. OH! OH!, I had no back up. The wheel's spinning inside my skull, trying not to freak out or faint whatsoeva. Uh, Oh, and what's available, is a MIX-ROOM of 4! UH. OH!!! I WAS totally freaked OUT! Having boys as roommates maybe OwKey.. But having STRANGERS as roomate is...quite DAUNTING!!. My roomate was an Arabian, and another an English bloke.But the clock's ticking and I had to get back to the venue, and My feet and back sored so bad getting the load outta there. So I checked In. And ran 3 blocks back.

Each day, the seminar was always closed by a finger-food buffets dinner..!!--Which was marvellous idea as I taste every single bit of flavors in tiny amounts. So varied that my stomach would be bemused and amused at the same time and I wouldn't reali As usual I move around gatherings...introducing...and trying to make out conversations...asking business cards...fill up another plate...and I bumped into a Malaysian Man, in around his late 30's I guess...I tried to be polite of course, and after few while, he asked if I wanted to get some food more decent (than fingers). Hmmm.I had always wanted to go places while I was still there...trying new cuisines, and he suggested Arabic cuisine. Hm. I found it particularly intersting as I know I wouldn't get to the site quite easily myself. And he told me that he'd talked w/ few friends so I assume having few friends would be less intimidating. :). But then, we went out alone. Argh. My eyebrows rose. Alert-mode : ON. ihihih...He even took me to his hotel, but I insisted on waiting him change clothe at the lounge. He went back after a while, and asked if I had done Maghrib prayer and suggest that I could use his room. d-Argh. My eyebrows rose even higher! well. tried not to be impolite nor su-udzan*, I explained that I would my shalats in jama-takhir that my safari mode is on. After few trials and me asserting, he gave up, and we went. Said a little prayer for myself. Hufff....Amin.

The next thing, is the fact of he not knowing exactly the arabic junction we were about to go. *erghh*. We went on a taxi, but I'd try to get outta there fast and I hate the idea of luring around trying to find the place we didn't know for maybe indefinite time...so I suggest another place to eat. It was situated on the northbridge--I went there walking around at the previous day, I'd measured the distance. It was court. It was an alley next to the river, where the colonial buildings still preserved and the view was fantastic and serene: cityspace lights reflected on the river. I'm not with the right person But I was enchanted by the view and I thought I'd be fine. So we settled and he ordered some seafood, and suggested that I'd do the same way. OH NO! A girl gotta do what a girl gotta do. and ordering food w/ his money is the least thing that I wanted to to do. So I ate nothing. Thankfully I took few rounds on the finger foods, though I was hungry, still. He, as usual insisted and finally I ordered a glass of lemon tea, to kill the time. It was an uneasy situation. foolish. awkward. He kept on talking. I replied, briefly. During the time, I tried to be polite and figure out how I could throw away the suudzan feeling but I didn't make it. I was becoming a jerk, looking through my watch all the times, and pretending that I was seeing a friend at around 8.30, implicitly suggesting,"Eat fast and let's just finish this rite away!!". Realizing the site was not far from his hotel, he suggested to walk back. Ok he's extending his time...but we walked and during the long stroll, he even suggested that I should go to Malay w/ him after the seminar's over! hEHHH!! hell with what that means. I dunno whether my eyebrows could be even higher than the default state. I walked blocks, fast. said goodbye, fast. and went into the MRT station, fast. Of course I didn't actually went into MRT station, Ijust waited for few while and went out again.

I spent the time in an internet cafe nearby. Once again astouned by the fact that the operator is also an Indonesian. I knew I had to kill time. and get back to the lodge as late as possible so I wouldn't have to chat with my roommate. I thought, a chat before bed, is equally uneasy. So I spent about an hour on the net, went to Orchard for pleasing my eye--though of course not very pleasing for the calves--and went back to the lodge maybe around midnite.

As I opened the door, I found the arab-guy was still awake, reading and the english bloke hasn't yet got back. I had to make up conversation and I found out the the arab was a economy journalist and being polite I was also introducing myself blaha blaha blaha... Oh, I'll describe him out for you. He's BIG, An Arabian with moustache and beard. BIG eyes. not scary but still intimidating. Fair skin complexion. He's tone of voice is OK, but the low pitch is kinda...eerie..ahhaha.. He's wearing sorban, but currently not wearing it, he had his hair bunned, messy here and there. I excused myself and changed clothes in the bathroom and desperately hoped that he'd fallen asleep when I got back. But I wasn't that lucky. He hadn't finished reading, so I went under the blanket first. I was so flaked out. My heart was throbbing. I couldn't close my eyes until I heard his snores. and the english bloke went back early in the morning, maybe around 2AM. I was in Full-alert-mode, all nite. tsk. hh...but, anyway, Alhamdulillah nothing happened. Bwahaha...I was paranoid!wekkk....

(to be continued...)

Hihi..the 2nd day's finished. I'll save more on the next days later...too much reading will kill you..


Cheerio!!

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7:06 PM

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14.9.06



Anyway, I was recommended une site francais, www.telecharger.com and I found this software! It's called ArtRage.It's great! LIke having whole set of painting materials : paletteknive, brushes, crayons and even watercolor and plus the water bucket! and you've got the texture tooo!! It really got the 'feel' of painting. The software's quite neat but you've got limited tools having it free, of course. But It feels like the first time I know Paintbrush when I was little. It's fun! OMG. I'm doing this again! Arghh...!! Oh, now I want another thing : A tablet PC, please.... hwerahaha...keep on dreamin!




My first attempt : "Uhum, so I cannot do any make-up. eheh.."

Er...just a scrabbi-doo-daahh...on the new painting tool. I know. Yaick! it's dull. But I've spent 30 minutes doing this and just wanna hang it here =D. I'll delete this one as soon as I'm getting something more pleasing to the eye. :p

***

This, is my second attempt, hmm... No! It's not a super-saiyan! ^_^ Hm...I'm entitling this : "Le cheveux d'arc3nciel". hahhaha....well, made this quite fast....but, I like it better than the first attempt.




Click on the image to see better view and feel of the texture! Download if you want to (ihihih)...

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posted by scttrBrain
7:38 PM

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On Being Procastinator

12.9.06


Procastinators : Leaders of Tomorrow

Kewt. *) quoted on Threadless.com, my fav tee site.

posted by scttrBrain
10:42 AM

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9.9.06




There's nothing nice bout being sick.
uhum?

Infact, there's NOTHING WORSE than being SICK.
Err....(Let me speak with you for a moment, site-viewers )Sorry for the rumbling, but FYI,the writer is caught by vericella virus for these last five days. Hehe, it's that famous 'Chicken-Pox'--for I dunno why would human disease be called akin to some avian or food-mouth disease. Anyway, she can't actually 'do' anything because the only thing the brain would mind is the aggravating itches all over her body!, so pardon.

Anyway, I'd like to say thanks for all the support, guys. Luv and mIss You!.. Now let's just let her rumble all the way through and pretend you don't hear a thing, ok?

I've been all messed up. The target's down my friend, and my schedule ruined!I dunno where the heck did I get this virus. and over all, In this particular moment of my life! It's the last thing that I need!
Oh c'mon...

What C'mon C'MOn?!
Don't deny you're not having quite a holiday

What? a holiday mending my blisters?!
There's some fun in it...

Oh, you mention fun. let's see...
First, this comes up in a particular moment when I should be most fit of all times.
Maybe you're pushing it too harsh..that you're not fit anymore.

Second, Its catasthropic to my pursual. Let's see I'd missed Careerdays, and The Art Fair!!! Argh I hate missing that fest!! and might tore down my spirit for this *project-you-don't-wanna-mention*!
it's not that horrible...

Third, this blisters are really annoying! I wanna have bath! I wish they'd just fall off!!
ok. ok. it's not that much fun then.

O b v i o u s l y. What is anyway!?
There IS some fun. Hmmm....

You don't call laying-laying lazy through the day-somekinda.. fun?.

You don't call marathoning One Littre Of Tears, well despite making your pillowcase soaked-somekinda.. fun?

You don't call watching LOTR trilogy-again-somekinda..fun?

You don't call running full series of Friends finale season-somekinda.. fun?

You don't call having ALL the time in a day for consuming your pirated cd un-watched-yet-despite som-o-them ain't workin'-somekinda..fun?

And don't mention all the time you can spend reading your have-no-time-to-read-yet-bought books...Wouuhhh...

You don't even have to worry of feeling guilty not 'doing' anything coz anyhow your brain only mind bout the itchies and cannot bear any other than mere indulgence whatsoeva!! See? It's not that bad. being sick.

Hmm..and.

You don't call..all those affection from people around you-somekinda..nice?

Admit it, It's practically a HOLIDAY!

Yea But..
And stop blaming the disease. Now you should better learn to measure yourself. It's not all about "We Believe in Ourselves" or more ego version,"I Believe in Myself". Because it's NOT US who rules OUR LIVES! Remember?!

....

*) artwork in blisters : "in blisteres, not so much fun.eyk"

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