"TA" is the answer. It's not that I had spent the whole year luring on that bloody final assignment of my undergraduate study, but I'd been mingling with the subject for actually a year. Let's make a time line throughout the year, and see how the subject always emerges in each time of the year, though the curve is not at all steady. ihihi...

January :

Best New Year Ever @ Ujung Kulon. Had been mingling w/ previous topic for my TA (final assignment, d-Uh) : "Early Warning System for Financial Crise", bLaha Blaha...get lotza support from those from the central bank. But, hey, I haven't got a decent advisor. so I'm bit of a volant. But I'd known quite much bout this topic. =D

February :

Get an intriguing offer for that (should I say, silly-ish) movie to Aceh. Can't help the urge to go. ssshh..Anyway, I haven't got any decent advisor for my bloody TA. So? Why bother. Hihihihihi..I was still hoping to continue the previous topic. Read here and there.

March :

Went to Aceh for first surveying. Found new best friends. Helluva month. Loving it. But TA? Oh, got assigned to my later advisor, Mr. T.Y. He's fine. but was sorry for abandoning you sir. Hasn't yet collected the soul.

April :

Hasn't much time to spend in Bandung, gtg back to Aceh for shooting. Was there for 4 weeks. Sorry for as3 for leaving the first 3 chaptres of 'permodelan dan simulasi'...uhuhu...TA? Intrigued by a new topic offered.can't say that it's less interesting from the previous topic I came with, so I did incline. It's actually interesting, and according to a friend, I should take somthing comprehensive, it IS. =D Moreover, ABS (Asal Bapak Senang). But still, can't stay long, sir. sorry. uhuhu...

May :

Went back from Aceh. Thought I'd get on straight to the matresses (of that TA)....Well, I was excited to start it. But then, another offer to manage a children photography classes comes. SSssshhh....One thing that I dunno whether I should feel blessed about or regret about, is that I decided to do EVERYthing that I wouldn't be able to do after graduation, last year. That includes the film making and working with children project. Hmh, anyway I feel challenged to transfer my photo-know-about to bunch of kids. So I AGAIN incline. a stuuupiiiddd decision, I later found. TA? getting on scratch. Rough ones. Whhoouuuhh, it's a prototype, so the contextual diagram got craaazzieee as I can modify it as my heart pleases!!

School-long holiday, that means, got crazed by Pustakalana Project. But I found myself immersed with the occasion. Working w/ kids was hellouuuvvaaa experience!!! Loving it, Got much to tell, Got much to learn about. Specially bout how to deal w/ kids, and their characteristics, and how different parents could affect profoundly into their personalities. TA? a lil abandoned... Got hell dizzy by TOEFL and GRE tests to take the next month. Haven't got any space in my skull left vacant, it's Way overloaded, par exact! I overestimated myself. a disease that I found out the later month.

Still on the project. How much I depraved of how the whole occasion really consumes my time. And I was incapable of controlling it. Hell I got way much geuuudddd time, but was it that worth it? I HAS TO, i thought. But I couldn't help. I had 4 to think bout : the project, GRE, TOEFL on 18 july, and TA. Somehow the priority got jumbled. My TOEFL was ok, but my GRE rolls down the cliff. Puffff!!. Break down. break down. The project, was under control, but my TA, left in despair, is totally abandoned that month. I could only do a (trivial) Business Process Reengineering for initial design stage that month. I found out that I couldn't partition my brain that much.

Finally, on the 23rd, the exhibition toiled up. I can then MOVE on from that (despite the fun and the experience), bloody project. I got down to the mattresses. TA time. Got really efficient using my time on the subject, Got all defined, quantitively. Whewww...realizing the scope alrite, but the load!?!!#!$ Wheeww...If I ever get graduated on nOvember, it's a miracle. But I Had, however, put the lights on. I burnt down the ship. Thanks to the fellows who encourages me to do so.

Got blisters from chicken pox. stupid one. Think I got it while doing data-mining at BPS. Anyways, got excuse for abandoning the ship once again. But after that, Got totally crazed burning down the ship. But didn't make it anyway. Realizing, according to a friend, if i ever graduated in November, I might could, but I might got a C, anyways. Awh. But thanks for knocking my head, mate. I realized that what I plan, is not always His. I found out that the bloody and ugly blisters, was actually my saviour.

Ok, no more fun-fun off the hook. TA TA TA all the time!! I overestimated myself. I underestimated the topic. It was not at all easy. Had finished the bloody model prior to Lebaran, but hadn't got a chance to report it to Mr. T.Y. He got sick. ewh. But found Roni, an excel-VBA programmer. It's totally crazy to learn bout the syntax and all myself. I handed the job to him, I share my tears along, too, of course as the consequence. He told me 2 weeks and that's all. But that's not the case.

Still hoping to graduate in 2006. Depraved of how the program is not yet finished. 2 weeks? d0Uh. 3 weeks, not done. the end of the month? done, but with ENDLESS debugging cases! ssshhhhhs!!! the program, according to the programmer is NOT AT ALL EASY. wwouuhh. glad that I didn't take the risk doing it myself! it could take another whole year. Still lingering on the program, found bit model modification while I was still refining and refining the data (while waiting on the program..). Agricultural data. THey hardly have decent ones out there! Hah!

The last month. is actually shorter than expected. My program has finally come to a decent shape. but the debugging's not done. ITs depraving. no wonder I have no interest in programming whatsoever. I was still luring on formatting, had no clue what to do because the program's not done, while realizing how much work to be done even after the program's done. Anyway, finally at 29th December, finally got--- I dunno what's the name--- "finale-revised-program" delivered. Got cramped up at Multimedia room for coupla days during new years days....found another bug at 31st, delivered it back again. So lOusyy...Spent the new years eve at home infront of my laptop, such a contrast to how I started 2006. Oh. Realized that I can count days to my DEAD DEAD DEAD Due!!!

End of 2006 : Mission UN accomplished. ~_~ hux.

Finally I could run the program at 1st. found another bug that the automatic replication for Monte Carlo method cannot be done properly. But at least I can run the program until the end of run-time. Although one running needs approx 1.5 hours, and I had to run of about...32 scenarios x 15 runs=480 runs which means 720 hours running!!! I used 8 PC's, so distributed the load, I needed approx 90 hours running!! I replicated manually. The saviour programmer offered to fix the problem, but he hadn't finished until 7th jan. By that time, I had spent nights dan daysss again at Multimedia, accompanied by lovely friends o' mine...thanks y'all.., and didn't think of using the LAST decent program afterall. I had to start packaging! BUNGKUS! finshed running the program on the 10th or so. not knowing how to analyze the simulation result. But had it done (cramped up with numbers, analyze, and all, almost the last 2 chaptres) quite nicely in just 7 days!. It could be better, but then I wouldn't be able to graduate on time. heck. what the fuss. I just wanted it to be done in the devil!. Not to mention The endless Revising, thanks due to Mr. T.Y who's so much perfectionist in intricate details. making the scattered-typed of me way much neater-all-in-line after all this fuss. Got an interview for a scholarship on 13--went nicely. and on 19, my final defense. and I was graduated! YEaah!!! Coulnd't be more grateful. I was satisfied with what I had accomplished. I had been ALL OUT. All the hard work, All paid up to the last sweat, tears and caffeine drop (well at least I didn't shed blood, hehe) ! The whole process, the whole learning of my true-self. I'd truly been blessed. Couldn't ask for more. Alhamdulillah.

^_^

So. What's next? Finger crossed everyone. finger crossed.